Chocolate Protein Pancakes 

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Good morning lovely humans!! Yesterday I made these beautiful pancakes for breakfast and I still can’t believe how good they are. They are made with just a few simple ingredients too. Win win!

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I based this recipe off of a post from Rachael’s Good Eat’s Instagram. I will link back to that picture so you can also make her pancakes. She’s a genius!

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Anyways, these pancakes are packed with eggs, coconut flour, and protein powder. AKA, these pancakes are SOOO FLUFFY. Like insanely fluffy. And filling. I couldn’t even finish the whole plate, which is huge for me. Hah!

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These pancakes could feed one hungry person or 2 moderately hungry people. It’s up to you! Or they would make fabulous leftovers…

Chocolate Protein Pancakes {Serves 1 or 2}

  • 1 egg (or flax egg w/ 1 T ground flax and 2 T water)
  • 2 scoops chocolate protein powder (I used Olly Nutrition)
  • 3 T coconut flour (You could use regular flour, but I haven’t tried it!)
  • 2 T vanilla almond milk 
  • 1 t cinnamon
  • 1 t vanilla extract
  • 1 t baking powder
  • 1/4 t pink salt

Mix all the ingredients together and add to a sprayed skillet. I topped mine with almond butter, organic berries, and maple syrup.

Based off of: Rachael’s Good Eats

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A long update for you!

Good morning friends! How are you? I have been pretty good. I have been enjoying my spring break with lots of good food, great books, intriguing podcasts, and some quality time with my family and Barrett.

I thought I would do a little update post with some of my favorite eats lately and what I have been up to.

My mornings have started out nice and slow with bulletproof coffee (1 tsp each of brain octane, xct oil, vanilla bean ghee, and 1 scoop of collagen peptides with 12 oz of coffee)  and with toast, berries, and eggs.

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One morning I even had a sprouted english muffin with peanut butter, a pear, and some granola.

After my breakfast has digested I have been going for an easy run or before breakfast I go to Crossfit.

After my workout one day I made a super smoothie with spinach, frozen zucchini, frozen banana, frozen cauliflower protein powder, spirulina, cinnamon, and almond milk.

If I don’t have a smoothie for lunch, I have been having a plate of roasted vegetables over spinach.

I usually have some almond flour crackers or rice cakes dipped into hummus as well.

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Barrett texted me on Monday that he had a surprise for me later that night. He took me to the new Indian restaurant in town, India Oven! Indian food is my favorite type of food so I was more than excited.

The food was insanely good and the waiters were very friendly. Plus, the restaurant was super clean which is always a win in my book. We will be back!

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Also, Barrett drew this car to put up in his office at work. Why is he so talented?!?!

IMG_3017There has also been a lot of snuggling with this one. She’s needy. But she’s cute!

I hope you all have a wonderful day! I will try to post more frequently. 🙂

 

I Yam What I Yam

Lettuce talk about something serious.

Like, serious serious.

*If you currently struggle with an eating disorder, please note there is content that may be triggering in this post*

I am a perfectionist. I hate messes, I hate clutter, I hate clothes that don’t fit, I hate drama, I hate confrontation, and I hate hurting anyone’s feelings. That’s a lot of things to hate? And, who am I to claim to be a “perfectionist”?

I have always been a bit OCD, wanting to control this or control that and it was never that “big” of a problem. Sure, it was annoying, but my family was used to it. Things became a problem when I felt like the thing I could control the most, was my body.

Lettuce back up for a second though. I can remember being on the bus in third grade with a band-aid over the mole on my knee (so no one would make fun of it). I would slouch in my chair so my knees were propped up on the seat in front of me, that way my thighs didn’t bulge like they would have if I sat up straight with my legs on my seat. (I was worried about “bigger” thighs in the third grade people. THIRD GRADE.*Sigh*)

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I remember being in 7th grade wearing khaki Bermuda shorts that my mom got me from American Eagle. I was so pumped to wear those things! Then, some girl (who I thought was my friend) looked me up and down and said my “a** had never looked so huge”. Then she laughed and walked off. I threw away those shorts when I got home. (Middle school sucks, am I right?)

I remember being a freshman in high school. I hadn’t worn shorts to school since my previous shorts experience, so I wore shorts on the last day of school. I remember feeling uncomfortable and awkward. Some guy mocked me because I was pale. (Like, what the hell?)

I remember being a sophomore in high school. I had just started cross-country and I was starting to gain some confidence. I had gotten a boyfriend, had dropped a few pounds, and was feeling more like myself. Then this boyfriend wanted to eat out all the time. McDonald’s, Sonic, cookies, ice cream, fried foods, the works. So I ate it too, I mean goodness forbid I tell him “no” because he “might break up with me”. We dated for a while and then ended things the summer before my Junior year.

 

I remember feeling “heavy” and my clothes being too tight. I became obsessed with health blogs, healthy eating, and sugar-free, fat-free sh*t. I told my mom I wanted to start eating salads for lunch and rice cakes for snacks. I remember her being excited that I wanted to clean up my diet. By October of my Junior year, I had lost 20 pounds and was looking fan-freakin-tastic (so I thought). My running had improved, my skin was healthier, and people noticed me more. But something was off. I felt sad? I would go straight home from school, eat my allotted one piece of fruit, and hide in my room looking at “health” blogs and trying to avoid dinner. When it came time for dinner, I would stress and stress about what to make. It needed to be incredibly healthy and under 300 calories. (By this point, I hadn’t eaten the same meal as my family in 2 months)

 

I remember it being the end of October / beginning of November when I broke down crying on a run with my mom. I needed to talk to someone. I needed a therapist or someone to help me quit thinking about food and the way I looked. That’s when I met Jamie.

By December, I was down another 20 pounds. I was tried. Soooo tired all the time. I was running in the mornings with my mom, then I would come home from school and run again. (I don’t think she ever knew this, sorry mom) I would cry ALL THE TIME. If I missed that run after school, I would cry and cry and then eat less dinner. I was so skinny and so afraid, yet I felt huge and ashamed. Who was I?

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(I remember having to duct tape that dress to my body)

In January, I had dropped 10 more pounds and I was at my lowest. I remember my mom BEGGING me to eat a granola bar after dinner each night. I remember my dad pulling me off the treadmill and breaking down and crying because he was so scared for me. I remember being in class when I took off my sweater and people commenting on my bones showing. I remember my parents yelling at me over a card game because I wouldn’t eat ONE M&M.

I remember wanting to die. Not to kill myself, but to just…not exist anymore.

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By March, I had started gaining a couple of pounds. I remember feeling overwhelmingly afraid. I was doped up on antidepressants and feeling out-of-place.

By the summer, I was at a “healthier weight”. I was eating things like ice cream, enjoying family dinners, and smiling more. My Senior year was exciting and scary and fun and emotional. The weight kept creeping on and I had to buy two sizes up that year. I went through jeans like I go through peanut butter now, QUICK. It was tough adjusting to my new size. My right size. I began dating a boy the end of my senior year. For some reason, he thought it was amusing to call me “cheeks” in regards to my abnormally large baby cheeks. Hilarious. I was so self-conscious already, this was just belittling. We broke up the day before I started college. He had his own issues and I couldn’t let him bring me down anymore.

I met the love of my life in that first month of college. I had admired him since 8th grade, but here he was at the same school as I was.

I remember it being October when I surprised him with a birthday gift. I remember him surprising me with dinner while I was at work, in November. I remember our first date and first kiss in December. I remember him telling me he loved me in January. I remember him holding me while I cried in February, because I just didn’t feel “beautiful”. I remember him telling me how gorgeous my baby cheeks are and how he loved the way my body looked. I remember him looking at me and saying “I am going to marry you one day”.

There is so much more I could say about my eating disorder. There were food rules, screaming at my siblings, months without a period, my hair falling out, going to the doctor all the time to make sure my heart rate was OK, and wearing my snow coat in the house because I couldn’t get my body warm enough. There were times that were so low I don’t know how I survived and there were times that were such a blessing that I can’t help but thank my family.

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Mom and Dad: thank you for loving me with everything you have. For holding my hand, for getting me counseling, for continuing to tell me I am enough.

Jamie (my therapist): thank you for listening to me, for helping me not be so hard on myself, for helping me realize that salads suck and I don’t have to eat them all the time, and for dealing with my craziness.

My love: Barrett, where would I be without you? You are my everything. I thank God every day for your sweet and inspiring soul.

God: I am sorry I tried so long to be a perfectionist. I know now that you are the ultimate perfecter. Thank you for helping me see that my body is just a body. Thank for for helping me appreciate every body size, regardless if it is big or small. Thank you allowing me to do the things I can do in this body that I am in.

❤ If you struggle with any disordered eating, you can always contact me. I am not a therapist and I am not a dietician (yet 🙂 ) BUT, I do know what it’s like and I am always open to listening to you or referring you to some of the people that have helped me. ❤

mono made me do it.

Hi friends! I feel like it’s been a while since I have caught you up on my life. So… lettuce talk! Oh, and I will throw in some pictures of what I have been eating lately too!

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First of all, you probably already know I have mono since I mentioned it in my last post but I want to talk about my life before I realized I had mono and what mono has taught me.

About a month ago, I was stressed to the max. Working multiple part-time jobs, not exercising like I wanted to, homework continuously piling up, and trying to maintain a healthy relationship with not only my family and Barrett, but with myself had me feeling slightly insane. Like, my eye was always twitching I was so stressed. My dad kept saying, “You need to slow down. Take a breath. You’re working too much.” And I kept saying, “I’m fine.” But it was more like, “I’m fine?” Like it was a question instead of a statement.

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overnight oatmeal. recipe on my instagram

I started having multiple symptoms of what I thought to be panic attacks. Night sweats, being extremely tired, headaches, swollen lymph nodes, a rash on my face, a tightness in my chest, and trouble breathing. There was one day a couple of weeks ago that I could literally not get off the couch. I felt so tired and so overwhelmed. I knew God was saying, “Slow down Anastasia.” But just like I had ignored my dad, I ignored God too.

I kept going full force with work, school, and life and noticed that a knot on my neck had grown a little over the last few weeks. A couple of days later (and several worried tears shed) two more knots appeared on my neck. I finally went to get some blood work done to make sure everything was okay. But I spent a couple of days in such a worried, stressed-out state that while I was making cookies, I cut my thumb open with an immersion blender and ended up with a trip to the ER and 5 stitches. All the while God (and my dad) kept saying “Calm down, take a breath, stop running around.” That was two Saturdays ago.

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AB toast and avocado toast w/ an egg

Last Monday I got a call from my doctor saying my tests said I had mono. They told me not to go to work, school, or exercise for at least a week. So I spent all of last week hunkered down watching Pretty Little Liars (don’t judge…haha) with lots of kombucha and snacks. I didn’t think about all the homework I was missing. I didn’t think about work. I didn’t even think about exercise. I was just simply, in that moment.

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PB toast and avocado toast w/ an egg

Isn’t it funny how I was so willing to listen to my doctor over God or my dad? I am thinking about it now and laughing because I literally was like “I can’t be still right now God, I have like 2149 things to do.” But to my doctor I said, “So can my mom pick up my school and work excuse later today?”

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lots of roasted vegetables w/ chicken

So my point is, don’t wait around until you get sick and your doctor tells you to take a chill pill. Listen to your family. Listen to GOD. I mean, He knows you better than you know yourself so why not listen to Him when He says it’s time to slow down.

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vegetables, kraut, and an egg

This past week made me appreciate mono. It helped me calm down and rely less on myself and more on God.

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Have a good week!

Pumpkin Turmeric Oatmeal

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Hello and Happy Sunday!

Sorry for being a little absent lately, I have been battling mono and a deep cut in my  thumb that resulted in 5 stitches and a trip to the ER.

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However, yesterday morning I finally felt like making some oatmeal and snapping a few pictures to share with you guys. The pumpkin and turmeric oats are so so so wonderful! They are creamy, slightly sweet, and remind me of Fall.

Pumpkin is packed with fiber to help keep you full! It also has a lot of Vitamin A to improve your vision. Pumpkin also lowers your blood pressure and helps you sleep at night (Daily Burn).  Turmeric, which I feel like is 2017’s superfood, is known for its anti-inflammatory properties. It also acts as a natural anti-depressant, pain-killer, and arthritis medication (Dr. Axe).

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Both pumpkin and turmeric give this oatmeal a fun and festive orange color! So without further ado…

Pumpkin Turmeric Oatmeal {Serves 1}

  • 1/2 cup plain, whole oats
  • 1 cup unsweetened coconut or almond milk
  • 1 T chia seeds
  • 1 t turmeric
  • 1 t vanilla extract
  • 1/2 t cinnamon
  • 1/4 t nutmeg
  • 1 t maple syrup
  • pinch of pink Himalayan salt
  • 1/4 cup canned pumpkin (make sure the only ingredient is pumpkin!)

Add oats, milk, and chia seeds to a pan. Bring to a boil. Whisk in turmeric, vanilla, cinnamon, nutmeg, syrup, and salt. Keep whisking until all the liquid is absorbed. Remove from heat. Whisk in pumpkin.

Optional: I added about 1 T peanut butter, 1 small cinnamon spiced organic apple (one apple sautéed in cinnamon on the stove), 1 T coconut cream, a handful of granola and cacao nibs.

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Sources:

http://dailyburn.com/life/health/pumpkin-health-benefits/

https://draxe.com/turmeric-benefits/

am I a yogi yet?

Hi friends! How are you? I am just peachy except that is actually a lie and I am really actually totally not fine. Lately I have been one anxiety attack away from possibly being put into a hospital.

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I might be exaggerating a little.

But in all seriousness, this season of life has been the busiest in my mere 21 years so far. From working multiple jobs, to balancing school, to maintaining relationships, to weaning myself off antidepressants, to being okay with “not exercising.” To say I am stressed is an understatement.

A couple of weeks ago I started having symptoms of what could have possibly been a panic attack. Headaches, sharp pains in my eye, very lethargic, trouble breathing, an intense pain in my chest, waking up sweating, etc. I also noticed a lump on my lymph node a couple of weeks ago. It  started to grow so I went to get it examined. Turns out, all the above symptoms resemble not only mono but lymphoma.

Do you see why I have been a tad melodramatic lately?

My poor family, my poor boyfriend…they have to deal with me in my dramatic state.

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Anyways, with my goal of “being more present” slowly being flushed down the toilet, I have been extremely on edge and worrisome about my life. #firstworldprobs?

A couple of weeks ago my mom suggested I start doing these Yoga with Adriene videos on YouTube. This lady, Adriene, has this 31 day challenge all about becoming one with yourself and de-stressing. It sounded right up my alley so I have been giving it a try.

I have only done a couple of videos so far but I am really, really digging it. It’s not only made me realize how inflexible I am, but also how calming yoga can be. I am hoping it will finally help me touch my toes! I haven’t been doing Crossfit these past 2 weeks so I was stressing about not getting in an “adequate workout” but yoga has made me realize you don’t need an intense and sweaty HIIT session to get in a good workout. With this stressful season of life, yoga has made me feel grateful for the body I do have.

Well friends, if you are in the same boat as me at all, I suggest giving yoga a try! I am by no means an expert so you will just have to experience it for yourself. But, I can tell you this, those 30 minutes on my yoga mat have been the least stressful 30 minutes of my entire day every time I do yoga.

so, am i a yogi yet?

Dreamy Green Smoothie

Hello beautiful people! Today has been in all honesty, very rough. I am taking some much needed self care time before I have to go into work. I am hoping to discuss more of what has been going on, on Friday so until then…please enjoy this dreamy green smoothie!

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It is chockfull of vitamins and nutrients with spirulina being the shining star.Spirulina is an incredible superfood that detoxifies heavy metals in the body, helps prevent cancers, lowers blood pressure, reduces cholesterol, and provides energy (Dr. Axe). It also includes vitamins A, K1, K2, B12 and iron, manganese and chromium( Dr. Axe).

Spirulina is also very easy to find at TJ Maxx or you can order it on Amazon.

PS I don’t know why the smoothies are two different shades of green in my pictures. I promise they are the same smoothie, haha!

Dreamy Green Smoothie

  • 1 frozen banana
  • 3 cups spinach
  • 1/2 cup frozen riced cauliflower (optional)
  • 1 T spirulina
  • 1 T cacao powder
  • 1 t cinnamon
  • 1 scoop collagen peptides
  • 1/2 scoop plant-based protein powder (I used Vega One!)
  • 1/2 cup almond milk

Toss all the ingredients in a blender. Pour into a bowl and top with your favorite nut butter and granola! I used chia seeds and almond butter in the pictures.

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Sources:

https://draxe.com/spirulina-benefits/

Cacao Protein Bites

The other day I wanted something chocolatey but not too sweet. I also wanted something that had a little bit of protein! These cacao protein bites were the perfect combination! Unlike other protein bites that use dates as the base, these use nuts so they aren’t as sweet.

Cacao is the key component here. Cacao is the natural, raw, unprocessed form of the cacao bean. It’s packed with 40x the amount of antioxidants in blueberries, a high source of plant-based iron, bursting with magnesium and more calcium than cow’s milk. Cacao is also a natural anti-depressant! Its a win-win all around with this guy! I can usually find cacao powder a TJ MAXX for very cheap or you can buy it online.

All the ingredients are REAL. No artificial ingredients here. MAKE THESE PLEASE.

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Cacao Protein Bites {Makes 30 bite-sized balls}

  • 1 cup salted cashews
  • 1 cup salted almonds
  • 4 TBSP cacao powder (or cocoa, but you won’t get the same nutrients!)
  • 4 TBSP cacao nibs
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 1 scoop collagen peptides (optional)
  • 2 scoops plant based protein powder (I like Vega One!)
  • 2 TBSP pure maple syrup
  • 1 TBSP vanilla extract
  • 3 TBSP unsweetened vanilla almond milk (or canned coconut milk)

Add nuts to a food processor or high quality blender. Pulse until a flour like consistency forms. Add remaining ingredients. Roll into 30 bite-sized balls. Top with 1 almond if you wish. Keep in the fridge for best consistency!

Adapted from: Balance with B

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Sources: Be Good Organics

Keeping My Soul Sane

Good morning!

So far school has been good but I can tell that the stress of it all is going to slowly creep up on me. I have been trying as hard as I can to take one day at a time but that is kind of hard when you are staring at 5 different syllabi with the due dates of assignments and exams posted on them. (Was that a run-on sentence? I think so.)

There have been a couple things I have been doing this past week that have been keeping my soul sane amidst all the craziness. I think doing things that make you happy and make you feel good are extremely important. There are so many times, especially in school, where I become extremely hard on myself. I am somewhat of a perfectionist so when I mess up on something I typically feel pretty bad about myself. I have also struggled a lot with depression in the past so finding things that make me feel good is something I have been really trying to incorporate into my life more.

  1. Quiet Time.

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I have addressed this topic multiple times on my blog but Quiet Time is something that I find to be extremely important not only for you but for your relationship with God. Even if you are not a Christian, finding time to be alone with your thoughts/feelings and whatever you believe in is very refreshing for your soul. 

2.  Blogging

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This blog has brought me so much happiness ever since I started it. There have been plenty of times when I get frustrated or embarrassed by what people say about my blog but it is something I am trying to look past. I think you should find something you are incredibly passionate about without caring what others may think. This blog does that for me! I love reading blogs, writing on mine, and so far my blog has brought me some new and exciting projects that are coming up! The point is: find something you love to do and do it!

3. Podcasts

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It was not until recently that I discovered how much I LOVE podcasts. I have been really into Bulletproof Radio and The Balanced Blonde. Bulletproof has A TON of nutritional information that I feel like my brain is literally going to burst from all the info! The Balanced Blonde is just simply pure and up-lifting. Every time I finish one of her podcasts I am instantly in a better mood. Jordan, the one who hosts/started the podcast is so wonderful!

4. Kombucha and Coffee

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Silly but true. Kombucha and coffee make me incredibly happy.  I know it isn’t wise to spend every dollar on kombucha and coffee but hey, kombucha is good for my mood and gut and coffee is like a hug in a mug. Right? Right.

5. Quality time with my man and my fam.

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Spend time with the ones you love! This is not anything new but I think it is pretty important. Loved ones have a way of making everything in the world seem right and okay. Barrett and my family know me very well so anytime I have something going on whether it is stressful or exciting, they are there for me.

Do things that make YOUR soul sane! Take one day at a time and take some time for yourself each day.

 

 

 

Self-Care Saturday

Happy Weekend! Classes begin on Monday and although I am already involved in a Chemistry class online through the community college, I wanted to make my last Saturday of “freedom” a good one. So, I present to you….

SELF-CARE SATURDAY!

This morning I woke up at 9 am (a rare occurrence since I am usually up no later than 6!) I went downstairs only to find out I was home alone. I took advantage of the beautiful weather and a quiet house and made myself some bulletproof coffee. I combined 1 TBSP of ghee, 1 TBSP brain octane, and 1 scoop collagen peptides to about 12 oz of coffee. I grabbed my new book “Deep Nutrition” by Dr. Catherine Shanahan and went to lay outside.

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This book is amazing so far. I heard about it when I listened to a talk by Dr. Cate on Bulletproof Radio. I love that this is NOT A DIET book but a book that emphasizes the importance of REAL FOOD and REAL NUTRITION.

I spent a couple hours outside until I started to feel hungry. I had skipped breakfast since I really was not feeling all that hungry. Now, skipping breakfast is not ideal but my bulletproof coffee has plenty of fats and protein to keep me satiated for a while. For lunch I decided to re-heat a grass-fed burger we had last night with some turmeric sweet potato fries, avocado, kraut, and Tessemae’s creamy ranch dressing all over some spinach.

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This meal was legit insane, I could eat it again and again!

After lunch I decided to take our family dog Annie on a walk. I can’t get over the weather today! Although I love rain/snow and temperatures below 40, I decided to take advantage of the 60 degree weather and spend as much time outside as I could.

I am trying really hard to put my goal of “being more present” to use. I listened to a podcast by Bulletproof Radio about rebuilding the body on the cellular level while I was walking. I always forget how peaceful walking can be. When I used to run all the time, I found walking to be excruciatingly boring. Now that I don’t run as much and have been practicing being more present, I find walks to be calming and relaxing.

Unfortunately I have to work tonight, but until then I plan on reading more of my book, plowing through some chemistry homework, drinking some green tea, and putting on my chlorophyll face mask from Cocokind.

Show yourself some self-care today! You deserve it!!