Hi! It’s been a while…a week to be exact.
That feels like a long time for someone who usually loves sharing about their life 2 or 3 times a week online. How have you all been? Are you ready for Christmas? I cannot believe it is only a few short days away. I am so excited to spend time with my family, go to church, hand out gifts, and experience good food.
December has been a rough month for me! I feel like I have been sick every. single. day. I think me and the rest of Bowling Green have been coughing and blowing our noses 24/7. To make things worse, I got the stomach bug on Friday! It was terrible. I was puking every 20 minutes from 2 am to 6 pm. TMI? Anyways, I wouldn’t wish that upon my worst enemy.
So, besides being sick, there is another reason I haven’t been blogging very much! I started this new medication that makes me nauseous ALL THE TIME. I used to pride myself on the fact that I didn’t need medication and I was 100% holistic, but life happens. I truly believe there is some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain or something. I realize how blessed I am and I know I have no reason to be sad, but there’s something in my brain that makes me extremely sad for no reason at all. I won’t go into too much detail on my different “sadness episodes.” Depression also runs in my family, so there’s that too. I talked a lot about this with Barrett and my parents and we agreed that there was nothing wrong with going back on medication (from when I had my eating disorder) if it was going to help my moods.
I didn’t really want to tell anyone about my antidepressants but I don’t want to be ashamed of who I am! Mental illness and depression are brushed under the rug too often and I don’t think there is any reason to be ashamed.
It’s been about a month since I started taking medication again and my moods are 100% better. The only bad thing? I have lost my appetite completely. I used to love to plan every meal and snack and make it look pretty for Instagram. Now, the only thing I crave in the mornings is plain oatmeal. Once I take my medicine after breakfast, it is usually downhill from there.
Honestly, this is probably way too much information to the strangers of the internet world.
But, if there is anyone out there struggling with depression…do not be ashamed or afraid. I’m in the same boat. I am always here if anyone wants to shoot me an email and we can talk!
I am going to post a couple of links for further info on mental illness and depression:
National Alliance on Mental Illness
American Psychiatric Association
Sorry to be kind of a bummer today on the blog, but I wanted to share what is going on in my life.
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