am I a yogi yet?

Hi friends! How are you? I am just peachy except that is actually a lie and I am really actually totally not fine. Lately I have been one anxiety attack away from possibly being put into a hospital.

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I might be exaggerating a little.

But in all seriousness, this season of life has been the busiest in my mere 21 years so far. From working multiple jobs, to balancing school, to maintaining relationships, to weaning myself off antidepressants, to being okay with “not exercising.” To say I am stressed is an understatement.

A couple of weeks ago I started having symptoms of what could have possibly been a panic attack. Headaches, sharp pains in my eye, very lethargic, trouble breathing, an intense pain in my chest, waking up sweating, etc. I also noticed a lump on my lymph node a couple of weeks ago. It  started to grow so I went to get it examined. Turns out, all the above symptoms resemble not only mono but lymphoma.

Do you see why I have been a tad melodramatic lately?

My poor family, my poor boyfriend…they have to deal with me in my dramatic state.

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Anyways, with my goal of “being more present” slowly being flushed down the toilet, I have been extremely on edge and worrisome about my life. #firstworldprobs?

A couple of weeks ago my mom suggested I start doing these Yoga with Adriene videos on YouTube. This lady, Adriene, has this 31 day challenge all about becoming one with yourself and de-stressing. It sounded right up my alley so I have been giving it a try.

I have only done a couple of videos so far but I am really, really digging it. It’s not only made me realize how inflexible I am, but also how calming yoga can be. I am hoping it will finally help me touch my toes! I haven’t been doing Crossfit these past 2 weeks so I was stressing about not getting in an “adequate workout” but yoga has made me realize you don’t need an intense and sweaty HIIT session to get in a good workout. With this stressful season of life, yoga has made me feel grateful for the body I do have.

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Well friends, if you are in the same boat as me at all, I suggest giving yoga a try! I am by no means an expert so you will just have to experience it for yourself. But, I can tell you this, those 30 minutes on my yoga mat have been the least stressful 30 minutes of my entire day every time I do yoga.

so, am i a yogi yet?